When My Voice Betrayed Me
Healing the silence that started long before the stage.

When Fear Silences Us: How to Heal Your Voice, Visibility, and Nervous System

by Catherine Josephine | The Love Priestess™

My throat closed. My body froze. My voice betrayed me.

I was 14 when the choir teacher told my mother I had the potential to be a beautiful soprano.

I wanted to believe him.

Transitioning from eight years in Catholic school to public high school was a culture shock.

I wanted to belong.

But when I stood alone at the audition, something strange happened…
I opened my mouth and nothing came out.

I pushed and forced and strained,
but what emerged wasn’t my voice.

It was the sound of fear.

A frightened, dying bird.

That was the day I first understood:
Self-doubt doesn’t just live in your thoughts.
It lives in your body.
And the body remembers.

The next week, the young track coach asked me to join the team.
But I didn’t even try.

I believed I was too short. Too slow. Not enough.
 (And if I’m honest? I’ve always preferred dancing over running anyway.)

So what did I choose instead? Theater.

Because on stage, I could pretend to be someone else.
I didn’t have to be me.

Acting felt safe.
Singing felt exposed.
Running felt impossible.

And now, decades later, I see the same pattern arise every time I prepare to record a video for social media or my online courses.

My voice still hesitates.
My body still protects me.

The fear is subtler now, but it’s still there.

Maybe it’s from childhood.
Maybe it’s from past lives.
Maybe it’s in my DNA from centuries of women being silenced.

But I know that healing doesn’t mean forcing yourself to be visible.
It means making visibility safe.

Your nervous system isn’t sabotaging you.
It’s protecting you.

So I’m learning to soften,
to soothe the younger versions of me who still tremble,
to speak not from performance but from presence.

To all the women and men who feel paralyzed when it’s time to be seen:
You are not broken.
You are remembering.
And you are worthy of being heard softly, slowly, safely.

🌹 This is the heart of how I help you attract and recognize true love.
Helping women feel safe enough to stop performing…
and finally speak, lead, love, and live from their truth.

If you’re ready to gently reclaim your voice — in love, in life, or online —
my private coaching journey from Shadow to Sensuality might be exactly what your nervous system is asking for. Contact me to explore how I can best support you in love, relationships, and self worth. 

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Because waiting isn’t harmless.
It’s the slowest form of heartbreak there is.

xoxo love, Catherine

The Love Priestess

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